I watched a video last night after watching Jimmy Fallon. As I watched it the tears just rolled as this is exactly as it all came down and how special Sam made me feel. Our love was so pure and deep for each other and as it says "At long last love has arrived, I thank God I'm alive." Those words hit home because I know it was Sam's love for me that gave him the strength to overcome a lot of his personal demons and step back into life. As you will see at the end of the video it ends with a kiss much like ours did and then he passed the next day after all that build up for two years of profound love we felt for one another. What I REALLY want to tell you is that Sam has asked me through an intuitive medium not to look "backwards" and to face forward with him. What he went on to say is he is continuing to evolve but I am looking backwards and it makes it hard for him to connect with me. He wants me to look forward so he can communicate with me more and grow along beside him.
I think this is a powerful message and a reality check for me. He is right, as so many times my/our grief is for what "could have been" and I feel I will never have. I/we are now asked to step into a much deeper "Universal Love" based on faith since we cannot see them. They are still with us and we have to accept the responsibility that we indeed did chose this for our own growth and lessons we need to learn. We knew that our love would stand the test of a "perceived" separation and send us on a journey that moved us closer to who we really are. As Twin Flames/Souls our mission is not only to serve us but humanity itself as this is a Divine mission. If we stay stuck in 3D and only think of what could have been, instead of the bigger picture of what truly is, then we will have failed the test and more than likely will have to repeat it. I share this with you because ever since that message from Sam I truly am accepting this is our choice and our love is not gone but more powerful than I ever thought it was. I am doing my best to "face forward" and take his hand and walk with him as we both evolve together.
I wanted to share this with all of you to let you know that if we do not accept responsibility in the life we chose with them including losing them then we become stuck. We will not go forward in our evolution and move into a much deeper part of ourselves/soul. I know our loved ones our cheering us on saying "You can do this! It is far from over as love is eternal and we really are not separated at all. We had to know what it felt like to "feel" separated to grow. Our love for them will give us the will to keep moving forward into the 5D and not stay stuck in 3D at what could have been. There is so much more than we are being told and truly, I feel we all know that. We all know that our love is sacred and will propel us forward into higher aspects of self and closer to our beloveds and the Divine/Source.
September 1, 2016
Hello, my name is Sheila Jenkins and I am the author of "The Day Before: Eternal Bonds into the Afterlife. I am the mother of two daughters and grandmother of five. I love music, dancing and lots of laughter. After working in the beautiful Shenandoah National Park for 35 years I decided to leave and I am currently a server at the Mimslyn Inn in Luray, Virginia. I worked in the Shenandoah National Park for 35 years where I met Sam and my journey began, which led me to write our story. I plan to continue on my journey and help others discover the divine love within and process their grief.